Thursday, May 27, 2010
Where's that light again?
You know...the one that's supposed to be at the end of the tunnel?? Today with the kids made me want to rip my hair out. I usually don't share too much about my teaching experiences, but it's a huge part of my life right now. It has been extremely hard for me starting into this "game" mid-school year. Don't get me wrong, this is what I want to do. There are days when I just get the feeling of this is where I am supposed to be. Then there are days like today that make me wonder if I can really do this. Can I really manage the behavior and discipline of these kids?? I keep thinking that next year is going to be so much better...I'll have some actual educator schooling under my belt and will be able to start brand new with my own rules. It's so close to the end of the year. 8 DAYS! I can make it. Part of it is definitely my fault for no properly planning my lessons. I just have not had the time since I've been administering the standardized tests, remediating failed kids, and have barely seen my regular classes. And this week has been super long. It feels like Friday but it's only Thursday :(
Sorry for the rant. I try to be more positive. I think I'm getting to see KD today! Yay! Then I leave for Tampa tomorrow...there's that light at the end of the tunnel.