Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Fail #2: I slept with my contacts in last night. I'm not going to lie...I'm bad about doing it. Call it laziness? I hate getting cuddled up in bed and watching tv wearing my glasses; therefore I keep the contacts in. After I'm cuddled up, often I am too lazy and comfy to get out of bed and take them out. Ok...back to the story. My left contact is bothering me when I wake up. I take it out a couple times and sort of inspect it. It doesn't have hair on it or seem to have a tear. It isn't terribly bothering me. I can still see. It isn't making my eye water or turn all red. It's bothering enough though. On a third inspection...I notice a minute tear on the edge of the contact. So I figure I'll throw it away and get another one. At our other house, I had a bag of a few boxes of contacted in the bathroom cabinet. After moving, I had a couple of ideas where this bag may have gone. Well...fml, of course I couldn't find it. On a normal day, I would just roll with wearing my glasses and all would be cool. But today is not a normal day. Today is the day I have to drive to downtown Atlanta. Today is the day of the Lady Gaga concert that I MUST be able to see adequately. Ok...so I'm going to get into some TMI here and everyone is probably going to be grossed/weirded out by what is to follow. So there are a few things running through my head...leave work early and get an appointment to get some more contacts! Well...I have no money. I kept debating that one...but I just did not want to deal with that and literally have no money to afford that today. Second thought...find the other contact and deal with it. Picture this: me digging through my trashcan to find this contact with the small tear. That's what I had to go with. To make the situation at least sound better, I did not immediately put the contact back in my eye (ew). I wore my glasses to work and will put in my contacts (after they've been sanitizing in contact solution all day). This fail put me in a terrible mood. And I still don't know where those dang contacts are!
The UGLY: Before the scale and the contact situation, I was promptly awakened to Marlee gagging at the door. The dogs don't throw up too often...but when they do it always happens in the early morning. I hear it, bolt out of bed, and run the dog to the door. As I was bolting up on this particular morning, Bailey (the cat) scratched the hell out of my arm. This is no way to start my morning.
The GOOD: Just to end on a positive note! Lady Gaga concert tonight with KD! Yayyyyyyyyy! And I guess I am proud of myself for going to work out yesterday. I didn't run this morning, but I vow to go tomorrow. And I'll post lots of pictures from the Gaga show!
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Thursday, December 24, 2009
eve w D's fam. My family has gotten out of the traditional Christmas
dinner within the past few years though. They're doing a Mexican
style dinner. So I sent some delicious chicken empanadas with them
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Half the Sky lays out an agenda for the world's women and three major abuses: sex trafficking and forced prostitution; gender-based violence including honor killings and mass rape; maternal mortality, which needlessly claims one woman a minute. We know there are many worthy causes competing for attention in the world. We focus on this one because this kind of oppression feels transcendent – and so does the opportunity. Outsiders can truly make a difference.The book is an amazing and necessary read for women I think. The stories really touch you. I know the book has been featured on multiple talk and TV shows (Oprah and the Colbert Report to name a couple). I could only dream of ever being able to travel to foreign countries speaking to women about human rights. The book really touched me, aside from the fact that it brings light to the gross inequities that exist in the world, but there are also multiple stories about girls/women from Cambodia. One of my sisters is adopted from Cambodia, so the country holds a special place in my heart. I'm passing the book on to my mom this month. I hope it opens minds and gives people an understanding of actions that most of us are ignorant/unaware of. I'm a big fan of nonfiction myself. We had awesome discussions about the book at book club. I think it still ranks as some people's favorite book thus far. Please read it. Definitely recommended.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Negatives (to get them over and end on a positive note): It's been marked with major celebrity deaths. I still have my same job which, let's just say, I don't love. We're still living in Athens. I lost weight at the beginning of the year but didn't continue throughout the end (semi-positive at least I've mostly maintained and not gained it all back). The official job search began and it sucks, sucks, sucks. Family drama has presented itself.
Positives (yay!): We moved to a smaller, more quaint and appropriately sized house. We went to Europe for a month (and I was graciously granted paid leave for the majority)! We got engaged! News that we will officially be moving in 2010. Friends still nearby in Athens. Book club.
Now some "Best Of's"...only because I am lame and trying to make my blog a little more exciting ;)
Ok...not going to lie...I had to google a list of movies that came out in 2009. I have a terrible memory and can not for the life of me remember which movies came out when. But...google did not have very good and comprehensive lists of 2009 movies either. Anyhow, off the top of my head I decided on
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Ahhhhh...December weekends. Stores packed to the brim....endless traffic...lights on lamposts...free shipping on all the websites. I kid, I kid. I LOVE December. I've been looking forward to cooler weather. I love the lights, having a Christmas tree, and all the decorations. I also have a LOVE for buying Christmas cards. They're so cute! I can't deny them. I couldn't find any images online, but we found some cute "How the Grinch Stole Christmas" cards and some adorable ones from Borders.
We've had a very lazy, yet accomplished weekend! Before this weekend, I had not started any Christmas shopping. On Saturday, D and I braved Target. It really wasn't that bad. I scored some items for my siblings. Check for gifts on all three sibs. Still want to add another item for my brother. Scored some items for D's family...well namely his/our niece. Got some necessities for the house....purchased more Christmas cards ;) Luckily I'm just chipping in money on gifts for my mom and dad. After a long day of shopping, D made some dinner and we continued season 5 of Lost (thanks to Netflix!).
Today, we also slept in and D made breakfast (same as yesterday...I adore him on the weekends). Then we sat around most of the day being lazy. I did practically finish my Christmas shopping online. I got everything I wanted for D online (and as usual spent way more money than I intended). After both of us spending a lot of time on the computer, we finally got up and went out to eat some Mexican. D says he's going to start eating healthy tomorrow. I say every weekday that I am going to start (again) going to the gym in the mornings. Maybe we'll motivate each other? Then after Mexican we went to see the new "A Christmas Carol" in 3D. Now let me tell you, it is rated PG but should totally be rated PG-13. It was good and probably very true to the actual Charles Dickens' story. I think it would be creepy and scary for children though. Even with a parent, I would not want my sisters (ages 10 and 7) to see it. The graphics were really great though. Anyhow, score for a lazy weekend with my guy :)
Monday, December 7, 2009
love all the little details in it. It's very close to my Vera Wang
dream dress. Of course it's too long...nothing a little altering
can't fix. But...I need to get my ass to the gym. Don't get me
wrong...the dress fits perfect, but I want to tone up. I want to tone
my arms and belly (and who doesn't want to look better in a bikini
anyway). I hope this will be my motivator. Someone said to me, if
you can't get into shape for this one time in your life, then you
probably never will. I guess what I'm struggling with a little bit
the idea that 3 months is not really enough time to make a difference
(at my weight). I need to though. Even if it isn't a visible
difference, it can't hurt to feel better about myself! I have to do
it!!! Think about the dress. Think about the dress. Hopefully it'll
pull me out of the bed in the morning.
We also registered this weekend. I'll have to post on that later.
It's a process! We registered at Target and at honeyfund.com (it's an
awesome site that allows people to contribute to activities we do on
our honeymoon...elopement/pre-honeymoon in our case). And picking out
save the dates on Wed!
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Friday, December 4, 2009
She could not have said it any better. I'm beyond frustrated by the fact that Americans continually make gay rights an issue of religion and other bullshit. People used to make segregation a religious issue too. It's completely unfair and prejudicial. And I am not sure that I have ever seen a cuter couple than Ellen and Portia. Plus I adore Ellen's show and Arrested Development :)
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
On a happy holidays note...we put up our Christmas tree on Sunday. It's sort of small and pitiful...but we love it nonetheless. And the cats haven't knocked it over yet (knock on wood). And notice our new stockings...we purchased those super cheap from Target after Christmas last year :)
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Orders of Business:
-Dress: DONE, $250 (which my parents are so graciously purchasing)
-Save the Dates/Invites
-Aruba wedding details
-Photography for party
-Food for the party
-Decor for the party
- Eatingware (plates, napkins, forks, etc.)
-Music for the party
-Party locale: DONE; Free @ the brewery
I'm sure there is PLENTY more I am leaving out. I'll post some more stuff later with my ideas and such :)
Saturday, November 28, 2009
re: family stories from the thanksgiving week in west Virginia. I'm
not going to go into all the dets of my week right now, but I have a
note about babies.
So I can't remember if I mentioned earlier that I spent a lot of time
around a 6-month and a 9-month old babies this week. D's cousin and
wife have a cutie little 9-month old baby boy. D's brother and wife
have a cutie little 6-month old baby girl. On a positive note, D was
so good with the babies. I never get to see him around babies and
when I do, he's usually awkward and doesn't pay them much attention.
In my opinion, he was completely different on this trip. He was so
good and playful with the babies. He wasn't awkward and weird. I was
proud; and feel a little more confident in his "dad" abilities if we
ever decide to have kids.
On the interesting note...both sets of parents were complete opposites
in my opinion. One set is the set that have been trying to have a
baby for a couple of years and probably more financially ready for
kids. The other couple is young, newlywed, and got pregnant on
accident. The parenting was obvious. The later couple seemed
stressed and almost uncomfortable the entire time. The previous
seemed happy and just wanted to be around their baby 24/7. The later
couple said "I'm just ready for her to be older." granted she did
mention how she knows she's supposed to love this age and time. My
point with all this being...I completely understand and support the
significance of both partners BEING READY to have a baby. We are no
where near ready (nor should we have to be considering I'm only 24 and
where not even newlyweds yet!)...emotionally or financially. And
yeah, yeah...they say you'll never feel completely financially ready
(aside from the fact that we both admit we're just too lazy and
selfish right now), but come on. Obviously we'd be better off with
some exta money in our savings and reliable cars closer to paid off.
Case-in-point...we are no where near ready. Again, let me
clarify...we are not and have not ever been considering children any
time soon. This just validates my ideals so I can defend myself
against KD and CAP when they mention that innate desire to birth a
child ;) But the babies were cute. It was a valuable experience at
least for me to see D in a child-friendly situation. Although...I
haven't changed. I was babied-out after the first night....
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for the week. I haven't been stressing about money, jobs and moving.
I have been thinking alot about our impending elopement and party.
I'm ready to get back and really start planning the party (as scary as
the money aspect of that is). Which, on a side note...how ridic is it
that the AVERAGE cost of a wedding is like $23k. Come on. I know
girls dream about their wedding day and all...but don't they dream of
having a house and travelling too?! And how do families dish out
money like that? Although, I would still take having no school loans
over a wedding any day. People don't realize how amazing it is to
have parents with the financial ability to pay for college, cars,
weddings, etc. All of these financial strains certainly make money a
lot tighter for D and I beginning our married life together. And
although he is doing something he loves (and I hope to be very soon),
we don't get paid enough for what we do. Anyway...enough on that
tangent! It has been nice to not really stress about things. We've
had most of our meals cooked for us (yay for not eating out and
spending more money!) and I haven't had to spend my free time job
searching. Of course we've had the occassional "we're moving soon"
convo which reminds me of my impending job search and obligation...but
thank goodness for the break of writing cover letters and mailing
resumes (with very little luck). Tomorrow it's almost back to the
real world. I have to start reading my articles for my philadelphia
teaching fellows interview (next Saturday) and figuring out how in the
hell I'm going to be able to afford that. To be honest, the real
world does kind of suck. Especially if you're looking for jobs,
living paycheck to paycheck, and working in this economy. Granted, I
don't miss juggling school and work...which will prob be happening to
me again in the near future.
Anyway...I plan to update tomorrow on our ride back to GA about some
of the interesting family and baby stories from the weekend.
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Thursday, November 26, 2009
posting. I just figure I need something to bring me back to reality.
Those of you who are around me on a semi-regular basis know that I
often let what feels like a million tiny bad things overwhelm the few
big great things in my life. I used to say that I was
optimistic...but who am I kidding? I'm a combo, I think. I am
pessimistic but I do find it very easy to point out positive aspects
when i want to. So in honor of my pessimism and Thanksgiving, I'm
listing some aspects of my life that I'm grateful for:
1. My friends, family, and fiance: I'm so grateful for KD and CAP.
KD is my partner in judgement and laziness. She allows me to
continually be a Debbie Downer and keeps me company via gchat at
work. And she adores Lady Gaga...I think we were seperated at birth.
CAP is the most unique and wonderful friend. She continually
encourages me and reminds me of the positive in myself and others. I
love her stories and the way she texts me when she sees something I
write on facebook. I'm grateful for my supportive family and the
opportunity to live so close to them for so long. Amazingly grateful
for D, who is one of the biggest parts of my life. I'm grateful for
the ideals we share and the beer he brings home :). I'm really
thankful that our only committments together are pets and we have the
freedom to move, travel, and grow older together.
2. My health and well-being: I am happy that the first time I went
to the doctor in like 3 years was a couple weeks ago. I am thankful
that I have health insurance to pay for birth control (even though it
feels ridic expensive) and prescriptions. I'm thankful I have the
ability to be active (and need to utilize that more). I'm thankful
that my well-being is continually being lifted, after the end of a
draining work day, by my pets whom I love and adore.
Ok...seriously I want to continue this but I have to get back to fam
time! And iPhone blogging takes longer. Happy thanksgiving!
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Wednesday, November 25, 2009
blogs I started but just keep forgetting to finish them. D and I are
on our way to West Virginia now to spend Thanksgiving with D's
grandparents. I've never been to WV, so I'm pretty excited! I'm
grateful for D taking his truck and driving the 6 hours there and
back. D grew up in WV so he'll take me around to see all the sights
of his childhood. It is funny because, despite the fact that we've
lived together for over 2 years now, we'll have to sleep in seperate
rooms. Gotta love the old school, religious grandparents :)
I LOVE the holiday season. The changing colors of the leaves,
wreathes on the lamp posts, yummy foods, twinkly lights, everything!
There is just something so warm and comforting about the holidays.
Plus the additional time away from work is awesome. I'm still
completely clueless about what we're doing for Xmas gifts this
year...especially since I have to somehow budget in a trip to Philly
On a super exciting note, D and I found out that his parents are so
graciously giving us a week at one of their time share locales (Aruba?
Bahamas? Hawaii?) for our elopement! Yay! It's not the all-inclusive
idea that we originally had, buts it's a million times better than our
Hilton Head idea (which is really all we could afford). So onward
with eloping in February and partying in march! Which also reminds
me...I need to get serious about working out so I can shed some pounds
to look hot for our elopement ;)
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Saturday, November 14, 2009
Yesterday, D and I ate at Big City Bread Cafe for dinner. It was really delish. They have some awesome specials...but on our budget we opted for the lower priced sandwiches and a burger. D loved the burger, and I got an awesome chicken sandwich. For an app we had some delish mac and cheese. We definitely plan to go back and split the 14oz pork chop! Then we cam back and watched a movie. I've been feeling sick though, so I bailed on D early :(
Today, D's been out tailgating and whatnot. I've been RELAXING! I'm still feeling a little sick...at least I woke up being able to breathe. I still am suffering from a stuffy nose, cough, etc. I slept in (until Bailey woke me up scratching at the door...grrrrr). I ate some cinnamon buns D bought for breakfast (yum). Watched a Law and Order. Ate a mexican lunch with KayD. Caught up on some dvr shows with KayD. Now blogging and watching more L&O. I'm sure I'll get some fast food later (just to pack on the pounds since I still haven't been working out...grrr...working out is another subject for another day). I plan to do the same thing tomorrow except hanging out with D a little more.
As for moving and the job search...I'm currently in the process of applying to some teaching programs. I'm interviewing in December for Philadelphia Teaching Fellows, in January for Prince George County Teaching Fellows, and TBD for Baltimore Teaching Residency. I'm considering AmeriCorps as well. If anyone up north knows about any other teaching programs, non-profits orgs, etc. let me know! D is being so supportive and flexible with moving locales. I'm lucky to have him really :) I suppose I need to start working on cover letters also. THE HARDCORE JOB SEARCH BEGINS!
PS. So freaking excited about LADY GAGA in December!
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
been waiting to hear back about this program/job that I applied for.
The whole process was really long and stressful. Following my
interview, I had to wait like 3 weeks for a decision. Now I had been
trying to mentally prepare myself for NOT getting in the program. I
felt ready and had made tentative back up plans for not getting in
it. It didn't prepare me at all. After finding out yesterday that
indeed I did not get accepted, I lost it. There were so many mixed
emotions going on in my head...disappointment, frutration, stress,
etc. There are so many frsutrating aspects of finding out I wasn't
successful. First, I was frustrated with myself for allowing myself to
react that way. Next, massive frustration due to all of the energy and
stress I put in to the whole application process. Next, I'm annoyed
that I am right back to square one. D and I are no closer to figuring
out where we'll move or what I'll be doing next year. And I have to
go back through more application processes. And also there's the
frustration that comes with failure. D tried to tell me if wasn't a
failure....but it's certainly not a success.
After crying and being a mess last night, I woke up this morning and
literally thought it was a dream. I kept thinking I would get a "just
kidding, we rethought it and think you're a PERFECT fit for our
program" email. Yeah...not happening. I instead have the terrible
email they sent denying me. I intended to sit around and wallow in my
misery all day...instead I get the pleasure of being oncall for work.
Awesome. Currently sitting in the high school counselors' office for a
half hour waiting on a student. FML. I apologize for the depressing
post...although I think I deserve one. One day, I hope to have an end
in sight. An end to this draining job. An end to my time in Athens.
On a positive note, D has been supportive. I'm sure it's hard with the
pessimistic attitude I have going on right now. I appreciate him being
there for me though.
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Friday, November 6, 2009
Now let's see...first things first...HALLOWEEN! Now I'm not the biggest Halloween fan. I feel stupid if I don't have something unique and fun. My past experiences have shaped this idea. Let me back track to mine and D's previous Halloween experiences:
- Year 1: D and I are in Valdosta visiting. We go down with no Halloween ideas and no costume stuff to even use. Away from home you are forced to buy something. We go to Wal-Mart (**shudder**) the day of Halloween. Ok, every one knows shopping on the day of Halloween is terrible. There's nothing good left. D ends up getting this weird hat with a rat on top. This is what I came out with:
- Year 2: Again, D and I go out shopping the day of Halloween. I can not find anything decent that I would not feel like an idiot wearing. We leave with nothing and I decide not to do Halloween (it is on a week night that year anyway). D just finds some clothes in his closet and throws something on (sorry, couldn't find a picture of that, but trust me you're not missing anything).
- Year 3: FINALLY we plan ahead! I searched forever to figure out what to do. Finally we decided on the Pac Man/Ghost gig. It definitely made a world of difference being in a "cool" costume that people liked. I loved it and I hope we re-use these:
- Year 4: After asking D all month (and even sending along ideas), I never could get a solid idea from him. So I decided to go forward with my idea for a solo costume. I figured he could do whatever he wanted. So Friday before Halloween, we go out to buy some basic supplies for my costume and look for something for D. He thought about doing Peter Griffin from Family Guy or The Dude from the Big Lebowski. So we checked out some places and couldn't find any solid clothes for D. Then we hit up the Halloween store which we stayed at forever going back and forth between costumes for D. Then we spent all day Saturday buying the rest of the supplies for my costume. Final product:
**Disclaimer: For those that don't know, I work as a case manager/social worker with children in foster care, their birth parents, their foster parents, their adoptive parents, testify in court on behalf of all these aspects as well as dealing with anything else that involves all parties. Try managing all of these parties for 15 children. It's been a learning experience to say the least...**
Thursday, November 5, 2009
have just been swamped. All kinds of stress..work, moving, jobs,
stuff to do every single night of the week, work, money, work, etc. I
promise a quality post w Halloween pics (which sort of ended up being
a drama in itself), moving/job search updates (well that will probably
be next week), life news. I've got some elopement ideas that I want
to throw out also. I'm still in limbo about a lot of stuff but I owe
some good posts. Soon...
And ps. How freaking ridiculous that Christmas is less than a month
away? Freaking out.
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Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
LADY GAGA ANNOUNCES HER MONSTER BALL TOUR!!!!!!!!!!!
In love! K and I completely plan on going. She hits Atlanta on 12/28. I can not wait. It's going to be fabulous! Anxiously awaiting Atl tix to go one sale. Not going to lie, I was super excited to see her and Kanye together. Here's in hopes that her solo tour will be even more fabulous since all attention can be devoted to GaGa.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
$590 at tobi.com
In other Gossip Girl news, dying over Chuck Bass' kiss with a guy. It was short, but so sweet ;) Oh but the episode has so many twists and turns. Hating on Vanessa because she dates Ed Westwick in real life. I will swoon over him foreverrrrrrrr ;) I wish I could be a guest star on Gossip Girl just to wear the amazing and beautiful clothes.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
- North Carolina: Pros: Closer to home, cheaper cost of living/ability to save more money?, warmer; Cons: Still stuck in the south, closer to home, possibly the lack of opportunity to move farther away at another time (I don't want to be stuck in the south for another 5+ years and not have the ability to branch out and experience living in different areas of the US.)
- DC area (DC/Virginia/Maryland): Pros: Middle of the road...not too far from home but not super close, possibility of more job opportunities for me, variety of living options (city, rural, suburban); Cons: cost of living, colder
- Philly/NJ: Pros: City living, not in the south, possibility of more job opportunities, closer to other amazing cities and places (NY, Canada, etc.), variety of areas to live; Cons: cold, long way from home & Athens for D (could be build up our sky miles?!), cost of living, cold
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
**Side note: D and I HAD NOT talked about getting married. I typically went on long rants about how I hate marriage. D even mentioned that I had said before that I didn't want to get married. Prior to our trip to Europe, I kid you not at least two people asked me if I thought we would get engaged in Europe. I bawked at the comment and said no way. I also noted that even if we were considering engagement, D has been saving up for this trip with all his money and he couldn't afford a ring. Now, this in no way meant I was actually opposed to getting engaged. I love D and of course want to spend the rest of my life travelling and being together. So....needless to say I was NOT expecting an engagement.**
Sooooo on we go off to Europe for a month. Fast foward to Cinque Terre, Italy. The most beautiful, fabulous place on Earth.
Seriously, D did the best job EVER picking out my ring. Pictures can't do it justice either. It's simple but complicated. It's antique-y looking, which is what I wanted. He literally picked it out completely alone (because remember we hadn't talked marriage and I hadn't given ring sample pictures). It is perfect. It even has a matching wedding band. I adore it. I told him about a month ago that I still find myself admiring it.