Tuesday, October 27, 2009
I am the worst of the worst. All my blabbing about being in a funk and wanting to get back on track. How about...I FINALLY went grocery shopping and got healthy fruits and veggies and my regular eggs and such. Do you think I worked out this morning? Nope. Take a guess what my excuse was this time...I woke up around 3:45a and could not get back to sleep for probably close to 2 hours. That's actually a valid excuse in my opinion...but fuck. I could have freaking gotten up at 7. It actually probably would have put me in a better mood during the day. Even with all my healthy food I bought, I induldged in my homemade lasagna (that's right, homemade), and cheez-its, and beer, and a spoon of peanut butter. Ughhhhhhhhhhh. I'm so mad at myself. Something has to change. Seriously. Where the hell did my motivation and dedication go? My running/gym buddy can't do mornings with me this week, and with my job, it's impossible for me to go to the gym at a decent hour in the evenings this week. I'm frustrated with myself for not making time and not making my health and fitness a priority. How can I flip that switch in my brain again?? Ask me if I am working out!!