Another place my mind has been wandering to is our family. I love our little family consisting of me, D, and our four pets. I have absolutely no desire (actually it's practically a fear) of expanding our family anytime soon....or even ever? Four years ago, I was freaked out by all the people I knew of getting married (um hello...I was only 21 then!). Right when I progressed passed the freak out of that and got married myself, it seems like over 50% of the people I know started getting pregnant. My facebook is overwhelmed with pictures of people's babies or their pregnant bellies (ew) or a status about how many weeks along they are or other baby/child related thing. I'm freaked out by it. I still feel like I am so young...with so many things to do in my life! I haven't traveled to wine country or New Zealand! It takes me long enough to get myself sunscreened up and packed to head to the beach for the day. It takes all my energy to head to school, work all day, work out, and then (maybe) cook dinner. I want to spend money on plane tickets and clothes. D and I live in a beer centered world. I don't want to spend my nights with baby while he goes to beer events.
Can you picture me dealing with this in a bar? [Google images]
This is not on my life list right now. Maybe I don't understand this "joy" associated with motherhood? Maybe I'm cynical and come across as a baby hater. I just am only 25 and still selfish with my personal time. I also work with kids for my job (which I adore) and that's enough kid time for me. Maybe one day I'll outgrow my selfishness...not crossing my fingers it won't be anytime soon.
And I'll continue to dote on friends' babies...but I may not offer to babysit ;)